Now back to the post and self-identity.
Let me continue by sharing my weaknesses with you (because this is also NOT a fad on social media. Everyone has a perfect, happy, beautiful family, happy relationship and impeccable appearance)

So then I'll be the one to break this: I'm naive, gullible, manipulable. Many times I prefer to be alone than with others. And as for my appearance, because it should not be forgotten: it often happens that my hair is greasy for days and I go out on the street, I go bald and it annoys me a lot, sometimes it happens that I put on a dress with a seal and my cardigan that is totally worn and with holes. So that's me too!

I consider it important to talk about this because it is a reality and I could set myself up as what a f @sza kid I am, who came out to Bali and realized his dream, he has no difficulties, his life is perfect and he is always happy. When I make a video or write a post, it reflects my current state of mind. At that time I soar and feel infinite happiness. So when I'm depilation and I'm under myself, I don't usually make videos because I don't feel like it. And I'm not going to force anything, because I'm not an Oscar-winning actor so that I can play happiness when I'm at my deepest. Many times I am brutally prepared because I am going through changes that need to be dealt with.
The inner work, which I try to develop with various lighter and more drastic therapies and methods, does not necessarily produce the feeling that many people think and what many “expect” from a spiritual treatment.

MISCONCEPTION (these feelings are less common):

• I feel lighter
• I solved a problem
• I am much more balanced
• I became happier

REALITY (these feelings are the most common):

• I am more frustrated than before treatment
• my heart is pounding, for which I don't know the reason
• I feel bad, I often feel nauseous
• I cramp to get better and not face this horrible feeling
• I start doing things that usually calm me down, but now they upset me even more

You may wonder who is the idiot who knows that, in many cases, you will feel worse after one treatment, and yet go back and “suffer” again and again.
It's me, stupid. WHY? Because these treatments, methods and therapies, bring to the surface the things that I have a task with that I have to solve. And the solution is not to suppress it in myself and not face them.
An example:
I went on a transbreathing and shamanic journey the other day, which has brought me a lot of relief on several occasions before. However, now after the treatment, I am very exhausted: physically and mentally. I got worse than before. My first reaction: I was angry at the therapist, at myself, for how I could be so stupid: I left and got even worse. Then I gained strength and thought about what the therapist had said: transbreathing can trigger many kinds of feelings, not only good, but also bad. But the bad is also just a matter of point of view. In fact, it is not bad either: since it serves ME, you just have to notice how.
I sat down at home and started a different kind of breathing exercise, where I looked at where the tension was in my body, and in the meantime I tried to articulate the feeling as accurately as possible. When I had the feeling, and I had the point in my body where I was experiencing it physically, I realized what the therapy brought to the surface. But then I was still in denial, I didn't want to face the fact that what I was getting into and saying yes was not really me and I had to stop. What it was: In short, it was just that I didn't have a program that I paid for to help reach more people on my social media pages. I pushed it because my ego was working hard:
“You reach so many people, you get a lot of likes, a lot of people follow you, this is your way, do it!” By this time, I already felt a tension and resistance very strongly in my stomach, but I ignored it.

Then a week later I went to transbreathing again, after which I became even worse than before. And the feeling in my stomach was even stronger, an inner voice almost screamed: YOU STUPID, WHEN YOU REALIZE THAT THE DIRECTION IS NOT RIGHT! YOU ARE RAPING YOURSELF. At that time, there was already external feedback, from a very nice friend of mine, who honestly just said: it's not you!

Then I started doing breathing exercises at home again, and in the meantime these feelings came:

• I lost my freedom
• I feel imprisoned
• I gave up on myself
• I lost my voice, myself
• I ceased to exist
• I'm not producing content that I am

And then I realized it couldn't go on like this. I have to stop and get back to myself. To make videos so that my feelings are in them, and not algorithms determine what words I use, how briefly I say, when I say what I say. From a business point of view, of course, this is not good. Because that means the algorithm won't support my videos, so I get to fewer people. But if I weigh whether I want to be free and make videos with joy, from the heart that reaches a few hundred people, or if I want to make videos that reach tens of thousands or hundreds of thousands, then now it is clear that I am choosing MYSELF and my freedom. All this also made me realize that I will spend much less time on social media because it also jeopardizes my freedom. Of course, this does not mean that there will be less content. There will be days when I schedule posts, videos, and there will be days when, I try to spend my days without a phone. I recently went through a day without my phone all day. It was indescribable, being with people I love and focusing 100% on that moment and people. That's what I want more and more now.

And something else happened when I was already listening much faster and more confidently to my heart instead of my mind. YOU MAY BE TIRED OF READING. But believe me, it's a fantastic thing to realize that our intuition leads 100% in the right direction.
It would have been a collaboration that would have brought many new guests and bookings. However, the inner voice is indicated. DON'T DO THAT! It may seem good in business right now, but it is not you and there are circumstances that are not cleared up, which is why your HEART is not involved in this.
I repeat: the decision is not good for business!
But first of all, I want to be a happy and free person who, after his decisions, does not feel the tightness in his stomach that he has said yes to something that he does not agree with. I believe that if I run my business from the heart, it will be successful. My company may develop more slowly, but every day I go to bed and get up with a calm heart. And believe me, once you've experienced this, you don't have the business opportunity or money to get out of it.

And my guests will find me even if I stay by myself, because these one-to-one encounters are fateful.